An Ugly Start

Just had a fight with my younger brother and I dont know for how many times. What just seems to be a heated argument turned to be an ugly brawl. This is not something that everyone in the family expected as a new year is just around the corner and we entering it with an ugly start. Somehow it tooks my parents to intervene to settle the matter. My younger brother has careless attitude on everything he do while me is an ill tempered person that want perfection in every matter. When these two opposing forces collide, not a single good outcome can be expected. These ill feelings towards each other has been there since we where kids. It touched my heart when I saw my mother shed her tears because of us as she the one who bears the burden the most. It touched my heart when I heard my father expressed his regret over the matter. As my parents, it is something that they dont wish to see, to see their sons quarrels and turn our back on each other.

I know that I'm the one who partly to be blamed. Somehow when you are driven with madness, you tend to lose your sense of well being, patience and self respect. Something that i dont want and not trying to be.  Sigh!!!!

Hopefully, as time goes by, things will get much better. I dont want these hatred and ill feelings continue as we grow up.

This house should be a place for happiness and love to flourish. And as long as I live, I will keep it that way and wont let everything to crumble apart

 


   

The King's Speech

I just finished watching movie The King's Speech and I'm truely inspired by it. I give two thumbs for the movie and surely it's worthy to watch. The movie was based on the true story of how the future king of British Empire, King George VI ascended the throne unprepared after the death of his father, George V and scandalous abdication of his brother Edward VIII. George VI who suffered from  debilitating speech impediment all his life, has to steer his nation and empire from collapsing as the World War II is taking place in British soil. Desperate and in pressure, George VI wife, Elizabeth seek the help of an eccentric speech therapist, Lionel Logue to help the despair king. Despite all the difficulties that both the king and Lionel faced, Geoge VI managed to overcome his stammer and became the symbol that unite the nation during wartime.        

The King's Speech won seven British Academy Awards and four Academy Awards. This is a film worth talking about. It truely raised my spirit to overcome difficulties in life.

Enjoy Watching!!!! 

It's Coming to An End

2011 will conclude in a few days more. Has this year been a good year for us? Only yourself can answer the question. It was a toughest year for me and hopefully 2012 will be more kind to me. There were several events that have caught my attention in 2011 and perhaps the public eye and I highlighted several of it:

1. The Arab Spring 

A wave of revolution has struck Middle East starting from Tunisia and spread all over the continent that have brought down dictator leaders such as Zine El Abidine Ben Ali (Tunisia), Hosni Mubarak (Egypt), Muammar Gaddafi (Libya), Ali Abdullah Saleh (Yemen) and the unrest is still ongoing in Syria demanding Bashar Al-Assad to step down.

The Arab Spring

      2.  Tohoku Earthquake and Tsunami

An earthquake with magnitude of 9.0 Richter struck Japan Pacific coast triggering powerful tsunami waves that destroyed much of cities that situated along the affected coastline. The tsunami also caused a number of nuclear accidents at the Fukushima Nuclear Power Plant which listed as the worst nuclear accident since Chernobyl disaster.

Fukushima Power Plant after the earthquake

      3.  Arif Alfian Rosli

Not much to say about this fella. Perhaps the entire population of Malaysia (or perhaps the world) know the stories circulated about him. The picture below should give an overview about him.

The Malay dilemma?

and many other things that happened through entire 2011...


And what will be the prediction for 2012?...not much since the Mayan people already predicted that the end of the world will happens that year...so just get rid of your new year visions, missions, hopes cause the doomsday is coming...BEWARE!!!

Ok, maybe Armageddon is a bit of an exaggeration

 

May You be Happy Forever

It's good to see you happy with the one you love. At least you are doing good out there. I know it was quite problematic between me and you. There's a huge gap, a gap that impossible to be closed back. Anyway, it's already over between us. You have your own life and I have mine. There were things to be regretted and  there were lessons learned
 
It will be your 20th birthday around this month. So the least thing I can do is to wish you happy birthday and may you live happily ever after

And for me, the journey is still far ahead. It might be a lonely journey but that will transform me into much stronger and better person to face incoming days and challenges.

God Bless Us All

Unfaithful Malaysians

I came across an article in The Star (5th December) entitled "Malaysians Third Most Unfaithful in The World" in terms of love relationship. It's kinda shocking to read how ugly our society is. A survey conducted by Durex found that :

1. 33% of Malaysian men admitted that they were unfaithful to their spouses
2. 39% of malysian women confessed to hving betrayed their partner
3. Malaysian men have an average of three sex partners in their life

What make the matter worst is that the Malays make up 50.4% of Malaysian population. So we can make an assumption of who contributes to this problem the most. Enough said, I heard these kinds of stories for million times already. I saw it myself, I experienced it myself. The storyline is always the same. Men cheating women and vice versa, your boyfriend/girlfriend plays kayu tiga, empat, lima...(I dont know, count it yoursefl), scandals, teman tapi mesra etc..   

Well, living in today's modern era, benevolence attitudes are no longer being endorsed. Honesty and loyalty which are considered sacred in relationship, are just meaningless words in today's interpretation. We are now living in moral depleted society. Our political leaders only think on facing the next general election,clinging to power and survivability of their tribes. They don't even bother of the real problems that plaguing our society especially Malay youngsters. Yesterday's Metro, I read about a Malay college girl being nabbed half naked with her Nigerian boyfriend (Nigerian????). Today's Metro was about 15 (15????) years old Malay teenage girl killed her newly born illegitimate baby. Her boyfriend cabut lari already. This are just few problems that came into limelight. I bet people out there heard more horrible stories than I do.

Premarital sex, skandals, kayu tiga or perhaps kayu 10, curang are now considered common to the Malays. Modern Malays tend to put religion aside and seks bebas, nombor ekor, bohsia, rokok and cikaro at first. I'm dare to say this because these are what happening around me. These are what i endure everyday. This is what the atmosphere that I living today.   

To those who have boyfriend(s)/girlfriend(s) or already married, try to ask this simple question to your partner

"Are you faithful to me?"

but before that, ask yourself first "whether you are faithful enough?"

Unfaithful love?

 p/s: I'm new in blogging, my article might not sounds interesting enough. But still I'm learning

       

We are Champs!!!!

A round of applause to our national footbal team for defending the most sough gold medal in a heart throbbing rivalry match against Indonesia. Despite being jeered by more than 100,000 of fanatic Indonesian fans, still our hero of the nation managed to overcome the challenge and won. It was sad to see how badly our national team have been treated by the home side. These kind of disrespectful acts kills the spirit of "United and Rising" which is the theme for this 26th Sea Games.

Nevertheless, congrats to Ong Kim Swee that have done all the best to guide our young tigers and be aware that the journey of our footbal team is still far away and got a long way to go.

Thanks to Harimau Muda Malaysia...Malaysia Boleh!!!

Harimau Muda, thx for the joy

Rein In the Rage

I'm  really piss off now. Somehow it's very hard to deal with stubborn people.

I dont know till when I can stand with this kind of people. I hope that patience still with me.


“Orang yang paling kuat adalah orang yang dapat menahan kemarahannya” -Imam AL Ghazali- 

serabut!!!

The Annoying Celcom

I think Celcom has entered its worst state and service ever since. I dont know for how many times the connection has been disconnected (and still it is now). For the past 2 weeks I was unable to go online due restriction in connection speed as I already exceeded the limit for data allocation. The same thing also with my phone. It's quite boring for the past 2 weeks as your line has been barred, you cant go online and your activities grounded to a halt. But as the restriction has been lifted, new problem arose as the connection tends to disconnect abruptly and it annoys you so much.

Hopefully the Shazzalli Ramly (the CEO) will listen to our plea and do something.

Haish!...dont know what else to say

In Pursuit of Happines

It's good to see people around you happy. Sometimes when we walk around, we see happy couples walk together with big smile on their face, enjoying their time together. I wish I could be at their place now. But everyone's fate is not always the same. We only see one side of this world. There is another side where things are completely different. When I see people are happy with their love one, sometimes it makes me sad. It pulls me down to the bottom of endless abyss. Why I can't be like them? Why their able to find happines why I'm not?


But then, even with all the sorrow, it taught me to be a stronger person. It taught me not to rely on fantasies. Stories like Cinderella, Fantaghiro etc. does not exist and they are fiction. It taught me that reality is much challenging and have no mercy.It helps to bring back my faith. I will fight my way out of it.I will pull myself out of the misery. And I will find the happines that I seek for all this time, the true happines.


 "Whoever does right, whether male or female, and is a believer, We will make him live a good life, and We will award them their reward for the best of what they used to do."  (Quran, 16:97)

 "But whoever turns away from the Quran, he will have a hard life, and We will raise him up blind on the Day of Judgment."  (Quran, 20:124)

I once turned my back from Your path, now I'm begging Your mercy and guide to help me walk through it gain. Do help me in this journey My Lord.

Happy Eid-ul-Adha

It's Eiduladha today for muslims around the world, a day to commemorate the willingnes of the Prophet Ibrahim to sacrifice his son Ismail as an act of obidience to God. It's also been associated with Hajj, a pilgrimage and a religious duty for a muslim that must be conducted at least once in a lifetime for those who can afford it.

In this life, we had sacrificed a lot and it raised a question whether for what reason and intention we did that. Me itself struggling for an answer whether everthing that i had done in this world were sincere and good enough. To be a good muslim, it requires an incomparable willingnes and obidience as been shown by the Prophet Ibrahim and I know that I'm no match to him in every aspect but I'll try as hard as I could

So in this Holy day of Eiduladha, let us make sacrifices in our lives in order to stay on the Straight Path. May God bless us all in our journey

"Surely Abraham was an example, obedient to Allah, by nature upright, and he was not of the polytheists. He was grateful for Our bounties. We chose him and guided him unto a right path. We gave him good in this world, and in the next he will most surely be among the righteous." (16:120-121)

" It is neither blood nor their meat that reaches Allah,  but it is piety from you that reaches Him." (Surah Hajj)

THE GREATEST REVENGE

When I was lying on my bed, my mind flew back to the memories I had during my school time. Somehow I wish to turn back the time and enjoy that great moment once again. Now it has been roughly 6 years since I left school. Most of my schoolmates now have became succesful in their  career path. Zahirah now lived in Calgary, Canada working for a leading petrochemichal company. Hazimah Fatin now still completing her study in Japan. Kuchai just graduated from Penn State and now being offered job by JPA. Huda has becames someone's wife now. Most of my Saserian's friends also have reached the peak of their lifetime. 


But...Where am I?

Well, I am nothing if to be compared with them. For the time being, there is nothing to be proud of. My career?.. my love story?..(T-T). but sure things will change in the future but it takes time as the road to success can be very bumpy and full of twists and turns. Like the title of my blog; Still on the journey, still in the making

Tunku Abdul Rahman once said that '' the greatest revenge is for you to outlives people and fluorish''. What he said was indeed true. It doesnt mean that i hold any grudge against my friends but the point is to become succesful in your life and achieve your dream. 

My God help me in this fight 

p/s: still working hard on my English vocab and grammar. If there any mistake about my English, do correct me...cheers

Live Life To The Fullest

Yes...and that is what i'm going for
For right on, I will appreciate every moment in my life... Thinking of having a guitar... Somehow i feel music makes me feel better...and one thing for sure is blogging...

There are many things that I should learn...I think I'm gonna work hard to improve my writing style so it doesnt sounds boring and uninteractive...and also to improve the content of my articles so that it can reach my audience...These changes cannot happen all in the sudden...it takes time...but it's worth a try

For now on...I will try to discuss on every aspect of life like personal interests, politics, love, musics, cultures etc...

Introducing my guru:

Anytime when I'm free, I used to read this book and try to learn out of it...This book helps me a lot..and in the future I will try to get more English books 

Even right now, I dont feel like I'm using correct English for my writing...but thats the purpose of learning...We learn from mistake...hope this will bring benefits for my future later on...


Quotes of the day

“For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and ask myself: “if today was the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?”  And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. Almost everything–all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure–these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose.” ~Steve Jobs

Improving myself

What have prompted me to start blogging again?...

Well...I already grew a strong intention for blogging back then...but for somehow i'm just to lazy to do it
Then, when I got employment....I can feel the need has grown stronger and stronger...my job is not a laborous job...most of the time i just sit down, taking reading and monitoring the quipments, chit-chat, sleep...so I had plenty of time and most of it are wasted for nothing...

Then...I can feel that my English skills has deteriorated over time...
Since graduated from college, there are huge differences between your study environment and working environment...at my workplace...there are not so many people for me to speak English with...therefore over time my English skills has diminished bit by bit and I must do something about it...and it is through blogging...

Another factor is to serve as a platform for me to voice up my opinions about something...
Many things happened to me back then...depression, emotional turmoil, loneliness financial crisis etc...and I need to get myself out of this hell...all of these are killing me from inside...I need to express all of these...and blogging will help me to relieve all the burdens that I carry all this time...

May this be a continuous effort...     








 

   

A New Start

BISMILLAH...

It's been a while since the last time i posted something on my blog...
Never cross in my mind that i will open back my blog and start blogging again...



Pheww!..many things had happened back then...good things and bad things...and it totally changed me thoroughly ...It changes the way I see, observe and interpret things that happen all around us...
Everything seems to be perfect back then...and i thought it will stay that way forever...but it did not...
bad things happened...and when u try to fix everything back but end up messing things up even worse...
at that time i realized that there's no use of fighting a losing war...because u will ended up losing anyway...
and a decision was made that had plunged my self into the state of grieving, depression and loneliness...
i messed up with my life, i became hot-tempered person, done many things that i shouldn't do, wasted so much time dreaming things that never were

Well, I had it enough!...It's time to put back my life to where it supposed to 
Let bygones be bygones...
Now it's time get up...

And somehow I know there's more in life than this...